Chronophobia.

NOUN

1.   An abnormal discomfort concerning time

I don't have a phobia. Well maybe I do, but I'm not diagnosed.

We all have our fears and that's ok!

New year, new me? No. Of course not. I'm the same person as 3 days ago, nothings changed. I wear the same clothes, I own the same items, I still have tea with milk and two sugars.

However. I have changed? My mind set. Not because of a new year, no. But because of events. Events that make you feel fear. Events where you don't know where to go or belong.

It has been a tough start of the year to say the least. Luckily, there's a silver lining.

NOUN

1. something that offers hope or benefit in a situation that is generally adverse
    

And so, here is my silver lining:

It's okay to feel fear, to feel betrayed, to not know what the future holds. Why? Because deep down there is everything you need, it might be visible, it might not. But you are equipped with everything you need.

My silver lining is that I have my brain which will generate my ideas and actions. I have my hands, allowing me to type, write and research. I have love and support, a home, a place to be happy and comfortable within.

My fear, along many others is that I am not using my time wisely, there's so many things to do, so little time to procrastinate and I hate to feel like a day has gone by with little to account for.

Therefore, I begin to lead a more productive life, to do as much revision needed to get me to where I need to be, to make good tea and give hugs for those who are having bad days, to walk and exercise more to become healthier as well as eat better; to become a happy, healthier and more positive minded me.

Here's to 2016

An Introduction.

Introduction?

Funny right? I mean, what exactly is an introduction.

NOUN
1. An introduction to something.

2.A formal presentation of one person to another, in which each is told the other's name.
(Wikipedia 2015)

 

In this case I'm introducing myself, who I am, why I'm writing.

 

I'm not going to lie, I struggled for days writing this; Why should a load of random people off the internet want to know that my name is Rachel, that I'm 16 and my ambitions in life, Stupid right? So then I went to the next thing, what my hobbies are, guitar playing? Product design? Performing? Psychology? But similar to who I am, why would people care about that? It's so dull. "Great another typical girl" you're thinking. So how do I catch your attention?

 

My next thought was that, why am I trying to catch your attention? What am I going to do with your attention? What can I produce from this blog?

 

So I came to this.

 

My name is Rachel, I'm a pretty typical teenager; I love going out with friends, I enjoy music, books and films.

 

My aspirations in life is to inspire someone, to point people in the right direction. To make a positive impact on someone's life. To improve the social views of the world.

 

I am a strong feminist.

I love writing.

I believe in optimism (that doesn't mean I don't have bad days)

I perform with varies groups.

Music is how I express everything.

I want to travel.

I like to be creative.

I enjoy trying new tings.

 

...The list goes on.

 

I came to the conclusion that no matter what I write, I have no way to attract your attention; I don't have fancy qualifications, I don't have lots of money, I'm not crazy talented... but what I do have is the power to write - To track my life, to enjoy the rollercoaster, to see my up days and bad days, to look at my progress and development of a person. And I'd like to formally invite you along. I may not be the most interesting person but I'd love to share my views and opinions on various scenarios and for you to participate and comment.

 

I look forward to this adventure and I hope you share it with me.